movies..

seen three movies this summer... going on four..

first, there was The Interpreter. di ko na ikkwento para panoorin niyo.
watched it with Ting. ok lng, panoorin niyo nlng,,

then the Kingdom Of Heaven. Shox! ang gwapo ni Orlando Bloom.
a must-see din to. watched it with Grace.

tapos Star Wars 3: Revenge of the Sith. mas maganda yun
light-saber-fighting scenes dito. hehe love ko tlga si Master Yoda.
quoting from Yoda: "Take courage to let go the ones you fear to lose."
watched it with the MDC barkada=) May the force be with you.

balak ko isa pang movie. hmm.. i wonder who am i going to watch it with..
baka ikaw na yun, kaya itext mo nako. sagot ko naman tickets eh. hehe

sometimes we watch movies to escape from the real world..
we even wish that movies will happen to real life.
but after watching, as we go out of the cinema,
back to the real world.. did we brought something?
movies are worth the time and money if we learned something
from it and with whom did we spend the time with it.=)

nood na tayo! text moko. haha first come, first serve!=)

light of a million mornings

I couldn't see the sunshine through the shadow
I couldn't seem to find a soul to care
But in my darkest hour
You touched me with Your power
And when I look Your Light was everywhere

CHORUS:
The Light of a Million Mornings filled my heart
The sound of a million angels sang my song
The warmth of a love so tender touch my life and suddenly
the light of a million mornings dawned in me

I couldn't try to understand the sunrise
I only know it takes away the dark
I can't explain your healing, or all the joy I'm feeling
I only know You've come into my heart
(REPEAT CHORUS)

And now that Your Glory has come shining through
Let my life be a candle Lord that shines for You
Shines for You
Shines for You

The light of a million mornings filled my heart
The sound of a million angels sang my song
The warmth of a love so tender touched my heart and suddenly
All of the light of a million mornings
All of the light of a million mornings
The light of a million mornings has dawned in me...

kaibigan

Minsan ika'y nag-iisa walang makasama
Di malaman sa'n tutungo
Naghahanap, nag-iisip kung saan babaling
Dito sa mundong mapaglaro
At tuwing ika'y nalulumbay 'di makakita
Nais mo ay may makasama
Sa 'yong lungkot akala mo ika'y nag-iisa
Narito ako't kapiling ka

Kung nais mo ika'y lumuha
Ako'y makikinig sa bawat salita

Kapag umuulan bumubuhos ang langit sa yong mga mata
Kapag mayroong unos ay aagos ang luha
Nguni't di ka mag-iisa, kaibigan

Kayrami ng mga tanong sa 'yong isipan
Nais mo lamang ay malaman
Bakit nagkaganoon ang nangyari sa 'yong buhay
Tanong mo man sa 'ki'y 'di ko alam

Handa akong maging tanggulan
Sa tuwing sasapit sa 'yo ang tag-ulan, oooh...

Kapag umuulan bumubuhos ang langit sa yong mga mata
Kapag mayroong unos ay aagos ang luha
Nguni't di ka mag-iisa, kaibigan

Ako'y naririto, naghihintay lamang sa 'yo
Tumawag ka't ako ay tatakbo sa piling mo
Kaibigan... kaibigan... kaibigan...

Kapag umuulan bumubuhos ang langit sa yong mga mata
Kapag mayroong unos ay aagos ang luha
Nguni't di ka mag-iisa
Kaibigan... kaibigan... kaibigan...

mother's day

habang tina-type ko to, pinapanood ko ang music video
ng "i'll never go far away from you"

kanina, pumunta akong manila memorial.
pinuntahan ko si mama kasi namiiss ko na siya.
trapik, mas matagal pa yun biyahe kesa sa time
na tinigil ko dun. kelangan ko kasing bumalik agad,
may praktis pa kasi. naputol pa yun bracelet ko.
kya ayun, gnwa ko nalang singsing. what a day tlga to.

happy mother's day!
i love you ma.

L E T G O

To "LET GO" Does not mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else.

To "LET GO" Is not to cut myself off, it's the realization that I can't control another human being.

To "LET GO" Is not to enable, but to allow someone to learn from their natural consequences.

To "LET GO" Is to admit powerlessness , which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To "LET GO" Is not to try to change or blame another, but to make the most of myself.

To "LET GO" Is not to care for, but to care about.

To "LET GO" Is not to fix, but to be supportive, and not violate my values.

To "LET GO" Is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To "LET GO" Is not to be in the middle, arranging all the outcomes , but to allow God to work in the lives of others.

To "LET GO" Is not to be protective, it's to permit another to face reality.

To "LET GO" Is not to deny, but to accept .

To "LET GO" Is not to nag, scold or argue with another person, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and allow God to correct them.

To "LET GO" Does not mean to deny the shortcomings in others, but to accept others unconditionally in love.

To "LET GO" Is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to accept each day as it comes; knowing God offers it to me for growth.

To "LET GO" Is not to criticize or regulate anybody, but to try to become the person I understand God wants me to be.

To "LET GO" Does not mean to compete against another human being, but rather, to compete within myself to learn "self- control" through circumstances God brings into my life.

To "LET GO" Does mean to fear less and love more.

To "LET GO" Means I don't demand my own way, but that I hold firm to my values and beliefs-- while allowing others the same privilege.

To "LET GO" Doesn't mean that I expect God to do everything for me, but that I let God show me how to do His will for my life.

The Most Wonderful Love

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone,
to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved
thoroughly and exclusively. But God, to a Christian, says,
"No, not until you are satisfied, fufilled and content with
being loved by Me alone -with giving yourself totally and
unreservedly to Me -discovering that only in Me is your
satisfaction to be found -and only then you will be capable
of the perfect human relationship that i have planned for you.
You will never never be united with another until you are
united with Me -exclusive of anyone or anything else,
exclusive of any other desire or longing.I want you to stop
planning, stop wishing and allow Me to give you the most
thrilling plan existing, one that you cannot imagine,
i want you to have the best;please allow Me to give it to you.
You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things.
Keep listening and learning the things I tell you.
You just wait, that's all.Don't be anxious, don't worry.
Don't look around at the things others have gotten or that
I have given them.Don't look at the things you think you want.
You just keep looking away off to Me or you'll miss
what i want to show you.And when you're ready,
I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than
you could dream of. You see, until you are ready and
until the one I have for you is ready,(I'm working even
at this moment to have you both ready at the same time),
until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life
I have prepared for you,you won't be able to experience
the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me,
and this is the perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have this wonderful love.
I want you to see in the flesh the picture of your relationship with Me and enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting beauty, perfections, and love.
Know that i love you utterly.
I am God, believe it and be satisfied."- GOD

a prayer for someone with a prayer like mine

Only you will understand my sadness and my hope. You know the recesses of my heart; know that my heart is breaking from loneliness. I desperately need someone to care deeply about me and to let me care as much for her. I do have friends and family but it is not the same as romantic love. Sometimes I am envious of couples walking hand in hand and enjoy themselves. I, too, want a moment with someone to share that joy. Confession is surely good for the soul. Indeed, even as I pray, Lord, You are helping me to see the bigger picture. In that bigger and larger vision, You show me that romance after all ends in sorrow, not happiness ever after. I begin to appreciate how You have sheltered me from hurts that maybe worse than my loneliness. I can see that those whom I have envied have their own burdens different from and perhaps, heavier. Even in my hunger for a romantic glance, a loving touch, I feel you healing me in thought. You are telling me to search less for a dreamy romance and more for the real people who need my concern. You are teaching me to lose my loneliness in the loneliness of others, especially those who are neglected by the world’s romantic pursuit of happiness. I accept Your call to a higher love, but never forget my prayer, please Lord, I will always need that one companion that I can call mine alone. If it is Your will, let it be someone who is praying now a prayer like mine.

run through the rain

A little girl had been shopping with her Mom in Wal-Mart.
She must have been 6 years old, this beautiful red haired,
freckle faced image of innocence. It was pouring outside.
The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain gutters,
so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the spout.
We all stood there under the awning and just inside the door of the Wal-Mart.
We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their hurried day.
I am always mesmerized by rainfall.
I got lost in the sound and sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the world. Memories of running, splashing so carefree as a child come pouring in as a welcome reprieve from the worries of my day. The little voice was so sweet as it broke!
the hypnotic trance we were all caught in

"Mom, let's run through the rain," she said.

"What?" Mom asked.

"Let 's run through the rain!" She repeated.

"No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit," Mom replied.

This young child waited about another minute and repeated: "Mom, let's run through the rain,"

"We'll get soaked if we do," Mom said.

"No, we won't, Mom. That's not what you said this morning," the young girl said as she tugged at her Mom's arm.

This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?

"Don't you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his cancer, you said,
'If God can get us through this, he can get us through anything!"

The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I promise you, you couldn't hear anything but the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the next few minutes.

Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say.
Now some would laugh it off and scold her for being silly.
Some might even ignore what was said.
But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child's' life.
A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith..

"Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain.
If GOD let's us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing," Mom said.

Then off they ran.
We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as they darted past the cars and yes,
through the puddles. They held their shopping bags over their heads just in case.
They got soaked. But they were followed by a few who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars.

And yes, I did..
I ran..
I got wet..
I needed washing.

Circumstances or people can take away your material possessions, they can take away your money, and they can take away your health.

But no one can ever take away your precious memories...

So, don't forget to make time and take the opportunities to make memories everyday.
To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven.

crossroads..

They happen all the time -- saying goodbye to some, choosing only one.
Letting go, holding on... settling for now, but facing what must come...
Yes, in life we all reach a crossroad sometime.
We make painful decisions and take some risks as we pursue our dreams.
But one should not stay at the CROSSROADS too long.
For even the birds have to leave their nests sometime and learn how to fly.
Life's road is long and rough, and there are stretches when one has to do it all alone.
And should you meet the cross at the road, be consoled.
Yes, more often than not, the road less traveled will surely bring you home.
Face the light and the shadow falls behind you.
Turn your back and the shadow stays in front of you.
Indeed, the truth hurts, but it will surely set you free.
The bitter pangs of parting will give birth to another moment called growing.
So grow on...
until it's time for you to move on...
and face the crossroads again,
knowing that God loves you and is in control of everything.
Be strong at the crossroads.
Embrace the CROSS at the ROAD.

The Lord is at the cross,
at the road,
at all your CROSSROADS...

puppy size

"She keeps repeating it over and over again. We've been back to this shelter at least five times. It has been weeks now since we started all of this," the woman told the volunteer.

"What is it she keeps asking for?" the volunteer asked

"Puppy size!" "Well, we have plenty of puppies, if that's what she's looking for."

"I know ... we have seen most of them," the mom said in frustration. Just then the young child came walking into the office.

"Well, did you find one?"

"No, not this time," she said with sadness in her voice. "Can we come back on the weekend?" The two women looked at each other, shook their heads and laughed.

"You never know when we will get more dogs. Unfortunately, there's always a supply," the volunteer said. The young child took her mother by the hand and headed to the door. "Don't worry, I bet we'll find one this weekend," the child said. Over the next few days both Mom and Dad had long conversations with her. They both felt she was being too particular.
"It's this weekend or we're not looking any more," Dad finally said in frustration. "We don't want to hear anything more about puppy size either," Mom added.

Sure enough, they were the first ones in the shelter on Saturday morning. By now the young child knew her way around, so she ran right for the section that housed the smaller dogs. Tired of the routine, Mom sat in the small waiting room at the end of the first row of cages. There was an observation window so you could see the animals during times when visitors weren't permitted. The young girl walked slowly from cage to cage, kneeling periodically to take a closer look. One by one the dogs were brought out and she held each one. One by one, she said, "Sorry, you're not the one."

She was at the last cage on this last day in search of the perfect pup. The volunteer opened the cage door and the child carefully picked up the dog and held it closely. This time she took a little longer.

"Mom, that's it! I found the right puppy! He's the one! I know it!" she screamed with joy. It's the puppy size!"

"But it's the same size as all the other puppies you held the last few weeks," Mom said.

"No not size ---- sighs. When I held him in my arms, he sighed," she said.

"Don't you remember? When I asked you one day what love is, you told me love depends on the sighs of your heart. The more you love the bigger the sighs!"

The two women looked at each other for a moment. Mom didn't know whether to laugh or cry. As she stooped down to hug the child, she did a little of both.

"Mom, every time you hold me, I sigh. When you and Daddy come home from work and hug each other, you both sigh. I knew I would find the right puppy if it sighed when I held it in my arms," she said.

Then holding the puppy up close to her face she said, "Mom, he loves me. I heard the sighs of his heart!"

Close your eyes for a moment and think about the love that makes you sigh. I not only find it in the arms of my loved ones, but in the caress of a sunset, the kiss of the moonlight and the gentle brush of cool air on a hot day. They are the sighs of God. Take the time to stop and listen; you will be surprised at what you hear.

ting ting

the first "ting" is my mom. that's her nickname.
i really miss her, lalo na ngayon na tumatanda nako.
bunso eh, kya mama's boy=) mommy ting is very complete.
kaibigan, katulong, yaya, masahista, taga-luto, taga-laba,
at marami pang iba, at xempre, the best mommy in the
whole wide universe and galaxies. ngayong mother's day,
namimis ko siya at palaging mamimiss.. pero masaya na din
ako kasi alam ko na katabi na niya si God. i miss my mom.

the second "ting" is the first, and maybe, the last girl i'd give
heart and love. siya si rach. kilala siya ng mga closest friends ko.
alam din nila kung gano ko siya kamahal. halata nga daw, sabi ni
ate e. ewan ko kung anong nangyari samen, but i know there
is something God wants to teach us. miss ko na din siya. at lalo
pa ngayong summer kasi we first got closer, summer ng 2003.

two "tings" in my life..
i miss them both.. i love them both..